So, for me, I go from being an agnostic to a bona fide religious freak, preferably a Christian. How would I feel about myself? How would others feel about me? I guess with this being a hypothetical question, we will never know. But it brings about thoughts of belief. Beliefs aren't that easy to change, are they?
L A
@homosanity · 4:56
But anyhow, so as I grew older, I went through a lot of bullying and through moving around to a different state in a small city, I found myself isolated, bullied, dealing with my sexuality. It was very, very stressful, some undiagnosed health issues, mental health issues. I was very stressed, but I didn't know what was going on. Right. You just think I'm a weird kid. These kids are picking on me and there is something wrong with me
L A
@homosanity · 4:51
And so as I was in that for many, many years, and it wasn't working, and as I explored many fundamentalist churches and wasn't really making the connections that I wanted and wasn't finding the healthy life that I wanted for myself, eventually I explored other things outside of that, and eventually I was forced to face coming out and accepting that part of myself. So then another change happened, and my whole fundamentalist world came apart
Dewuan .
@FryedOreo · 1:39
Thank you, Homo sanity for sharing your experience of your core beliefs with us here on this webcast where we talk about beliefs and changing of beliefs. And does that make it weak or strong that you change the with your beliefs of spirituality and your coming of age, of your sexual orientation? I can understand that some people would consider this to be a clash of sorts, but at least with you being a Catholic, Catholicism and whatnot
L A
@homosanity · 4:58
So I think when you're younger, you're more flexible to changing your beliefs. I think the older you get, it's very difficult. And I'll give you another example, and I'm sorry to stay on the religious stuff because I know that probably triggers people, but it's just the examples that for some reason are popping into my head with this one. But I used to know a lady
Swell Team
@Swell · 0:15
Dewuan .
@FryedOreo · 3:17
But now I am of an uncertainty of what is and I just remain somewhat indifferent. And even in aspects I do appear to adapt aspects of spirituality. So sometimes I feel like I am a spiritual agnostic. But there is something that seems wrong when you change a belief ep weak beliefs you double down on and convince yourself that this is guess it's not easy to change