You won't look back regretting recovery. You will look back regretting that you didn't choose it sooner. Fourth, other people are faking their recovery in. So you are faking your illness, yet everyone else is faking recovery. Think about this for a minute and I think it's a lot more likely that your Ed is the one chatting rubbish. This thought is literally confirmation that your Ed is worried that you will see life without it. It's so much better than life with it