Rox Starra
@ROXSTARRA · 4:59
Over policed and under heard
And I don't think anything of it right away because I also have a key, and we've been making fun of the new building, saying that it's shot to shit anyway. And so I get in with my key, and I just happen to try on the exit keypad, and it doesn't work. So now I'm a little pissed. So I go into the break room, and I'm putting away my two sodas and sandwich because I need to figure this out
Rox Starra
@ROXSTARRA · 4:59
And I dropped my smile and I felt my feelings as I dressed myself with this. I always called it a New York toughness, but in all actuality it was survival brain. It was a trauma response. It was the way I have protected myself all this time. And it went like a signal to my brain and my thought patterns on he is categorized to be treated this way because he is a uniform. And walking away, I felt all of this and yes, all at the same time
Rox Starra
@ROXSTARRA · 3:54
Undoing, unlearning this trauma response that I've carried with myself for so many years. I grew up in Queens, New York. And I remember when I moved to Brooklyn when I was 13 years earthside. And I used to buy Lucy's just to pass the crowd of guys on a corner of Hancock in front of the bodega. I always wanted to just be on that side because the train station was on that side