And I started reading, and then I started taking it apart in the original Hebrew language to get even deeper insights and growth and depth and different places opened up to me so that I could have the butler understanding that God was trying to show me that what was going on in my life was not God's plan for. And I also knew that the intimacy of relationship between a husband and wife should reflect the intimacy that we have with God, which is complete intimacy. You have heard it said into me